Social media personality Amanda Zuva Habane says she contemplated suicide once a month while she worked as domestic worker in Canada, as loneliness and money problems in a foreign country took their toll on her.
In a lengthy social media post, Zuva detailed her life in Canada, which saw her have various encounters with some outlandish characters as she sought to eke out a living. Zuva said like many, her problems had begun with the onset of Covid-19. “One moment you are wearing thousand dollar dresses and blinded by the camera flashing lights and people shouting Zuva zuva zuva , the next you are on flight to France, Italy, Spain taking pictures and posting. I had an ineffable life in Africa. “Well… Every great story ends with … “and then Covidi happened.” “It did happen, pane vanhu vakabhenefita from Kovidi isu tisu vaya vakakutugwa kubva mungoro. From the dust we rose, picked up the pieces and carried on moving forward, through trials and tribulations and escaping death.
“One day I woke up in Canada. White cold snow, white people and genetically modified foods. A whole new different life,” she wrote. Zuva detailed how at one point she found herself working for a couple that was sexually hyperactive and had one day walked in on them in the act. “It was so much they didn’t care if I was there or not. I would sometimes close their bedroom door myself. One time I got curious because the way she was crying this time I genuinely thought she was being hurt, ini kwakudongorera wanike the lady was sleeping half body on the edge of the bed akavhura makumbo kunge datya, the man was standing holding his waist vachikweshana haikona zvekutamba. I closed the door and proceeded to the kitchen to drink cold water and mind my business, thank God for earphones,” she Zuva also revealed that she worked for a young lady who seemed to be a sex worker. She said the woman reminded her of her earlier, as she had spent her teenage years with a sugar daddy.wrote.
“Instead of cleaning her house first, I would cook for her and force her to eat because I knew she had been ‘using’ earlier. Next I would delete all nude photos and incriminating videos she probably took of herself and other people from the previous night. Then run the bath water for her, we would get in a five minute fight trying to get her to wash, finally when she was asleep I would begin cleaning.“As sleeping beauty lay there, I saw myself in her. I had daddy issues and spent half my teenage hood with a sugar daddy. She had “Parents Issues “ she probably had it worse I thought to myself,” she wrote.
Zuva said throughout this time she battled her demons and contemplated suicide regularly.“Did I mention through all this halla baloo of metro trains, traffic, loneliness, money at least once a month I contemplated suwisayidhi? Yeah, I was used to that unthinkable situation so much that it became a norm, oh I now know how to manage those thoughts now, I face them and have conversations with them. “We always negotiate, I saw kuti if I ignored them they grew, I personified them. And now I have full blown conversations with them then they disappear for a while,” she wrote.
Zuva added that while she had come to terms with her job in Canada, she still had ambitions of becoming a TV star one day. “Each home had its own energy vibe, most of it was good, some had Stagnant Energy. I found comfort and started coping when I started recording my work. “Yap I cleaned those white peoples houses like I was trying to clean my past. “Anyway I’m still here, still at it, I’m loving it but I know I won’t do this forever… you wanna know why? Because I’m Zuva, I’m bigger than this and I belong on TV. If only I can go through this bad patch, save my mother’s Family home then start saving for TV,” she wrote.
